I saw you standing there and I
knew what love meant
I understand what I lost now
and I realize I made a big mistake
if I could go back in time
I would change the lies i said
and i would tell you the truth
i would let you know
just how i feel inside
and maybe you'd forgive me
maybe you would take me back
but i ihave no way of telling you
so ill write it in theses poems
maybe someday when im brave enough
ill give them to you face to face
as for now ill keep on writing in my dumb note book
all the things i think you should know
but unfortunetly you wont
this is my deepest secret
the one that no one knows
if youd have me one d
im obesessive
maybe overly
im pitiful
isn't that obviouse
im lost
and i cant find my way home
im torn
but taped together
im forgotten
but ill live\im ugly
and yet im beautiful
im scared
but im me
im burnedd
but ill still stand here
im weak
but i have to be strong
im broken
but i can be fixed...
i may have only met you
maybe four or five times
but i love you so much
its surprising how just
one night can make my heart explode
Id die for you
just from the way i feel with you
its just so comfortable
it feels like i belong
theres only one problem
you dont feel the same
im told your better off without me
and im forced to believe its true
i hope you are happy
while i wish to be with you
i remember once when
youd return my i love you
but its diffrent now
im lost without you here
forgive me
i love you
the sun is setting beautifully
with red-ish clouds ontop of blue
so peacefully its grogeous
clouds so close to us
i watch from the inside of this mobile
moving every glance at its beautiful sight
fulffy red-ish puffs of cotton
a silky bed of blue
something like ive seen before
something so comfortable yet new
purple clouds they flaot on top
of the red-ish clouds
specks of white painted in between gray falls over itall like a blanket
the pillows of black
a wonderful sight
so comfortable again
just a bed of sunsets
how i wish i could be there
Broken up,
Torn in two.
Why is that,
All I think of is you?
You run around,
Playing games with me,
All in my head,
I'm blinded by love can't you see?
Forgetting reality,
I only think of you and me,
whenever im with you
I think 'us' selfishly
you know how to make a girl
cry and beg
using those words that are oh so sweet
but your voice makes me melt from head to feet
knowing Im only one of your safety's
you can always count on me
using one girl then running back
because you scared, scared to leave.
i can't believe the things you said, the lingering words, that feed in my head. i forget, to stop remembering, i collapse, these words are dismembering. they cripple me, til' i can't crawl, they cripple me, and laugh as i fall. tears, they swell and fill up my eyes, this is hell, and everything dies. from happiness to glee, from joy to me, they all burn, and melt to a stentch, the wheels still turn, as white knuckled fists do clench. this torture is all in the pit of my stomach, clawing and twisting, im giving up, sneering and hissing, im keeping shut. these lingering words are kissing my brain, dismembering words, causing my pain
Your so pretty, its hard to miss
I know so many wish
They could take away your sadness with a kiss
Those eyes of yours
So dark, The spark is gone
Laughter is a remedy lost to you
Inside you've become so cold
Your soul's grown old
And you cannot break this mold
Your strings are pulled
So often that your wounds are dulled
How often we've all tried
To snap those ties
You exist my dear,
To tell what they want to hear
no matter how they may leer
You survive
Trying to make your friends smile
Yet your crying inside all the while
For some reason
When your told to dance
You spin and twirl and pirouette
As though your a beautiful
I'm so sorry
But i can't take it anymore
love me, hate me..
My eyes are filled with tears
and my heart is drenched in ice
there's one thing that makes me feel
aside from yor voice
and as i drag the blade
across my now painless wrist
I know
somewere deep inside
im hoping you'll notice
Realize im bleeding
Over you
That you'll come save me..
But i know..
You'll never pull me back up
no..
You'll shove me back farther
and i...
wish i could see your eyes one last time
Pray to something that your heart weren't empty
My love is meaningless to you
even though..
i gave everyting to you
I should have known..
Im nothing...
May
OMG IM SO FUCKING HAPPY! i thought I wouldn't be able to get back on DA! because my email was fuckin up.. so i had to use the old one... x3xforbiddentearzx3x@yahoo.com and it worked... phew!
well. ill spare you the details and run through this quickly. Lost Mike...aparently its my fault. How'd i know this would be like this. can't explain myself to him beccause i jsut snap at him. I go out with josh now. since 7/11/04 @ 8:15 er somthin. nice. happiness is good but somethings always gotta bring me down. i had the feeling something like this was gonna happen soon anywas. i knew that he'd leave. or well aparently...id fuck up. meh...nothin new. gotten used to it...*sigh* whatever
~Monarch~
I bet you thought this was sereously something good. lol. Well guess what! I just wanted to tell you ppls about the coolest hing tha tmy mom bought me. ROLLER PENS! OMG THEY ARE FRIGGIN AWESOME! I LOVE THEM! THEY WRITE SO FUGGIN SWEET! lol. Oh and more good news, theres no school on my birfdie so my party starts at 12. whoever shows up shows up, just i/m me for directions to mi casa, BleedingDove13 or BrokenPromises13. MWAHAAAHAAHAAHAA! no bodies better get me anything. MIKE I OWE YOU SEEING HOW YOU DIDNT KNOW! Plus you get a picture of me! As for the rest of you, NO GET ME ANYFIN! I WANT NUFFIN! Got it? good. lol :glomp: oh yes, I am the Glo